i've moved to www.janisnice.livejournal.com

2007-02-17T14:50:00.000+08:00

ive moved. :)

http://janisnice.livejournal.com

im still contemplating whether to take this blog away entirely, or just keep it here for memories. what do you think?

2007-02-16T00:18:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD.

EXAMS ARE OVER. :D

and so, HERE COMES TWO FULL MONTHS OF HOLIDAYS MAN!

okayyyyyy. myself misslimshaoLIANG missCHEONGahzhuan mrvanhongvee and the one much missed by many many, mrniclau, we went seoul garden and ate like hell. :)) could have been shiok-er if the choice of food was moremoremore. anyway, it was still good, because of the company. but everyone was so irritated by me the whole time. IM SORRY MAN. lol. cannot control myself. :s after which, we walked around town, and landed ourselves in far east again. walked walked walked, AND THEN, power dahhhh.. look at the below photos mannnn.

WAHLAO. this is scary la. we were standing inside far east looking at the whole thing throughout. we didnt know what caused the fire, but the thing is, the damn firemen took damnnnnnn long to come. wth man. -.-

OKAY. and after that, i went to meet xpxpxpxpxpxpxpxpxpxp :D eh xp, if you're seeing this, NEXT TIME AH, before we meet ah, we should inform one another about what we're gonna wear man. DAMNNNN. it has been MANY MANY TIMES already that we looked like two siao charbohs next to each other. LOL. XP YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN MAN. but i dont give a shit, because i love you. :D

I'VE GOT THE DAMN URGE TO POST ANOTHER PHOTO, BUT I THINK YOU'LL JUST KILL ME. DONT WORRY. I'LL LEAVE THAT ONE AS MY WALLPAPER STILL. HAHAHAHAHA!!

okay fuck i need to sleep badly. GOODNIGHT.

and im sorry. im sorry for all that has happened. :(

2007-02-15T03:07:00.000+08:00

alright man. last paper to go man. screw els later man. 6 more hours to go man. and 8 more hours to freedom man. i cant wait man.

valentine's day = wake up at 12.30pm + conquer the godly book of ELECTRICAL SERVICES + romantic lunch with tongthebitch at s-11 + nice dinner at crystal jade + cute stuff. :)

THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU DUMBDUMB.

ever fallen in love with someone

ever fallen in love

in love with someone

ever fallen in love

in love with someone

you shouldn't've fallen in love with

2007-02-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! TO WHOEVER IS READING THIS. :)

spent my pre-vday on a date with tongthebitch. caught Babel. in the show, there were 4 different events happening at the same time, but all these 4 events are somehow linked to one another. anyway. the point is, tongthebitch only enjoys one of them. HAHA. ask either one of us, and you will be told. LOL. then after our date, we dated someone else. she's none other than miss yan yan. LONG TIME NO SEE AH. yeah so we had a threesome, while crossing alot of lorongs in geylang, and ended up having a plate of duck rice and a plate of wanton mee somewhere. three share. then, we had two bowls of rochor rd's tao-hway. then, we had frog porridge. oooolala. and lastly, we had 4 durians and 1.5kg of mangosteens. EVERYTHING = FULFILLING. more please.

--

and im looking forward to my date later. MY DATE WITH ELS. if you dont know what that means, it means ELECTRICAL SERVICES. chaonehneh. 12chapters for me to satisfy. i'll be tired, balls. gee. sarah said, lecture notes will never hurt me. but i think sometimes, they do. because if i study hard on what i suppose is gonna come out for the exam and they dont come out, THEY HURT ME BAD. but if they hurt me bad, YES, IM GONNA THROW THEM OUT OF MY WINDOW. :x nah, actually, im more looking forward to what's after that. heh. and dont worry sarah, if your boy ever date any girls(fuck you tong, mother and sister not counted) out later, im gonna break his neck, then you can throw him out of the window. :)

alrighty. gonna spend some time with els alone now. do not disturb.

when i say it, i mean it. <3

2007-02-12T01:47:00.000+08:00

before i KO...

woke up at 2pm, and spent my sunday doing these.
1) cny shopping with mummy.
2) spent my afternoon peeling prawns for mummy.
3) mummy's friend and his family came to visit us. so nice. first few pre-cny visitors.
3.1) cny haven come, i already started eating those cny tidbits already. too irresistable.
4) more cny shopping with mummy and this time, with daddy too.
5) dinner at two tables, side by side, at the same time.
6) because one table was with my parents, and the other with my slutty son, my smartie grand-son and my grand-son's screwed play-mate.
7) walked to the new mcdonalds for dessert. nice place. nice ambience.
8) spotted a familiar person there!
9) walked home from there. holycow. good exercise. i think i should walk home from school next time.
10) brother got new dvds. good good.
11) i wished i was better at my words, then i wont feel like im losing out to you.
12) i wished for so many things for me, and you.
13) im damn sleepy now. i wanna sleep.
14) I CANT WAIT FOR YA KUN BREAKFAST LATER. UNCLE, set A please! :)

goodnight. (:

2007-02-11T03:02:00.000+08:00

im bloody tired and sleepy, but i just cant get to sleep. CB. must be all the food i ate the whole of yesterday.

morning - mee at 6th ave.
afternoon - wanton mee at heeren.
tea break - refreshments at Hana.
dinner - pasta at Ambush!
din-per - dessert at ben and jerrys.
supper - chicken wing from s-11.

HOLYCOW. -.-

no more econs liao. no more law liao. fuck els liao. SCREW ELS. i cant wait for the 15th.

:):):)

2007-02-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

taken from the book:

Llimpus v London Generel Omnibus Co.
the driver of an omnibus had printed instructions from his employers not to race with or obstruct other omnibuses. in contravention of these instructions, the driver obstructed the plaintiff's omnibus causing a collision and damage to it.

the driver's employers were held liable for the damage because the driver's actions, although wrongful, were merely an unauthorised mode of doing something he was authorise to do, namely driving the omnibus.

taken from a si ba hu:

Limpeh v London Generel Omnibus Co.
i rmb LIM can alrd
i HIRE that bloody uncle to drive
then tt bloody uncle mai drive
go obstruct ppl
then car BANG LAH
BANG!
then knnnnnn
i have to pay
chicken neh neh
ask him drive properly dont want
obstruct ppl for what!!!!!
ROARRR

i have ZERO confidence for law paper which is 9hours away from now. OHMYGOD.

2007-02-09T20:54:00.000+08:00

this post is specially dedicated to the flea!

I THINK I WILL MISS YOUR UNCOUNTABLE AMOUNT OF HAIR ON YOUR LEGS. :)
but i do hope they dont grow back too soon though. if not you always buy Veet, and since your leg hair always so much, then later out of stock, then we ladies cannot buy, I WILL GO LOOK FOR YOU!

HEH.

2007-02-09T01:41:00.000+08:00

HOLYSHIT!

ECONOMICS PAPER IN 7 HOURS TIME.

2007-02-06T23:06:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i last wrote a decent entry here. so yeah, here it goes. :)

i didnt know doing facial could be so torturous yet enjoyable, until today. lol. WHO WANNA GO FACIAL WITH ME NEXT MONTH? i tell you. DAMN SONG. lol. now my face feels damn light damn clean damn SHIOK ah. (:

lessons for year1 has ended last friday. now it's only left with 3 fucked days of papers.
0902 - econs
1002 - law
1502 - electrical

today is tuesday. im only left with wednesday and thursday to study econs and law. and the cool part is, i havent quite started on either one of them yet. how nice hor? yay! God, please bless me. I DONT WANNA DA-BAO MODULES with horfun and charkwayteow to year2 leh. knnknn. :(

sometimes i wonder. why do people always have to put others' feelings before one's own self and her own happiness. or, is it just me? i hate it when im being put infront of decisions to be made wisely, tough choices to choose from and questions to be answered honestly. i wish i could lie through every single thing now. please tell me everything will go my way, the way i want it to. please tell me nothing's gonna stop me from what i want to have.

didn’t wanna wake up,

and find that I was falling so fast.

didn’t wanna need you,

didn’t wanna need anyone,

now look what you’ve done.

2007-02-06T02:25:00.000+08:00

i'm awake, you're still sleeping
the sun will rise like yesterday
everything that we are now
is everything we can't let go
or it's gone forever far away

i hope tomorrow is like today, like today

don't you go away tomorrow
i don't think I could handle that
you're probably dreaming that you're flying on then,
you start to fall
but then you rise,
and shine forever,
don't go away

i hope tomorrow is like today,
i hope tomorrow is like today

like today,

i hope tomorrow is like today,
i hope tomorrow is like today,
i hope tomorrow is like today

like today.

maybe i already knew what i want. yet maybe i dont. oh well. just fuck me. that will do.

2007-02-05T01:26:00.000+08:00

the DURIAN FEAST was damn shiok! :)
sad man. today geylang no 'chickens', only got alot alot of 'ducks'. the 'chickens' all go hiding already. mama say cause police come, so all run away. LOL. =x

okay byebye!

2007-02-04T15:13:00.000+08:00

"u shld
make some decision on your own
cause apparently, it's your life that you're leading"

uh huh. and then?

2007-02-03T18:14:00.000+08:00

maybe it's time i should start to make some decisions on my own. what do you think?

2007-02-02T13:14:00.000+08:00

someone should tell you

how much i love you

cos i really do

wish i could hold you

the way that i want to

cos no one, can love you, like i do

you're everything, that i ever dreamed

you're the only one

the only one for me

so we talk all night

but in my head

three little words, that i never said

you say you don't know what you'd do without me

don't you know that this is killing me

and i'm not that strong

2007-02-01T19:25:00.000+08:00

2007-02-01T01:55:00.000+08:00

010207
NO WATER SUPPLY IN THE HOUSE FROM
12PM TO 6PM.

chao backside. then how the fuck i shower sia. :(

2007-01-31T16:07:00.000+08:00

wokay. so its the last day of the first month of a new year. :)

im inside amber now, and before i start killing my braincells while working on all those bloody online quizzes, im gonna talk some shit here first.

i wanna summarize what has happened during the whole month of January. firstly, the bestest thing that happened at the beginning of this year, was me turning 18. hehehe. i can club legally already. -.- i watched my first ever m-18 movie, which includes the digging out of bloody brains, livers and balls, and the chopping of heads and kicking them down the stairs. what else hmm, oh yea, sua and i had the wildest 3d2n chalet ever. LOL. im not going into details bout that. uh huh uh huh. quite a few people's birthdays also fall on this happy month. tongthebitch turned 18 too, and suamydarling turned 19 just few days back. a w w curly curly. :) the last time i talked to someone was on my birthday. after which, we become like strangers to each other, which ive got no idea why and what actually happened that things had to be like how now. oh well. school has been crazy ever since the new term started. everyone has gone mad because of those bloody projects then. and now, we're gonna start chionging for our end-year papers already. argh. yeah we're all going crazy soon. :s

now that January's ending already, im looking forward to the 15th of Feb when all my bloody exams will be over, and then it would be 2 full months of fun fun and fun. :)

could this be out of line

to say you're the only one breaking me down like this

you're the only one i would take a shot on

keep me hanging on so contagiously

2007-01-30T00:47:00.000+08:00

July 06

Jan 07

wait till i go dig some more past year photos of us for a good laugh. :)

i love these two bitches so much. i know they mean alot to me.

SUA, we hope you enjoyed yourself during dinner just now. and we hope you love those things we've got you too. use them wisely and only when the time is right. HEH. <3

but love, i dont want to be falling for you.

2007-01-29T00:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU SUA. :)
please stop being so horny already. you must not be a 19-year-old mother of a kid or two. i dont wanna be your kid(s) godmother so soon sia. :D
love you, bitch. <3

2007-01-28T01:27:00.000+08:00

hi. :)

subra may be smelly. his lesson may be darn boring. we may not understand what the fuck he's talking. sometimes he may be damn cb when it comes to us making noise and not being punctual for his lesson. BUT, i cant deny that his module's project is damn fun. LOL. :x

---

somehow, ahliang and i ended up at the airport after being in town.

and that place still reminds me of this particular person. WEIRD. nevermind. we went to the viewing mall, and we saw this.

and so ahliang's question was, "IS IT THAT INDIA AIRLINES THE PILOT ALSO INDIAN ONE?" after which, we left the place and took bus home. the bloody bus ride was a killer. suffered from ass numbness. thanks man.

now, my question to ahliang, IS IT FLY IMMIGRANTS? OR FLY EMIRATES? hahahaha.

it was fun fun fun. :)

---

the content of the phonecall conversation between ct and i yesterday's morning was a super mood-spoiler and somehow, i was pissed, fucking pissed.

cause im crazy for you. touch me now and you'll know it's true.

2007-01-27T02:01:00.000+08:00

WHEN I THINK OF YOU

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO

WHEN WILL I SEE YOU AGAIN?

2007-01-26T17:39:00.000+08:00

cause im lookin at you through the glass...

i think albert einstein's soul is in this room. if not, wah piang, why this room so bloody cold man. it's freezing here. thanks einstein.

argh i cannot take it anymore man. you know, it's a bloody turn off when someone who has a partner, tries to revive the good times and starts fooling around again, which is making someone else's life miserable. eh please. it took her a few bloody months to get over with it, and now you're messing up her life again. are you a man or not? just stay attached with your girlfriend and fuck her alone can? dont ever bring someone else into the picture again. i pity your poor girlfriend. i cant imagine her giving you pleasure while you think about someone else. it's not fair for both the ladies man. geez. weirdo.

okay i need to get started with my work soon.

ttfn.

and its no fun pretending at all. fuck me please.

I remember Mama said

Can't hurry love

You'll just have to wait

She said love don't come easy

It's a game of give and take

2007-01-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

hi. i promise i'll sleep after i finish blogging. :D

woke up this morning feeling damn sian when i looked at the sky. but we still went on with our plan. aiseh. sentosa totally nobody one la. except for groups of tourists. played volleyball. played soccer. IM THE WOMAN OF THE MATCH PLEASE. hahahahahahaha. and weige a.k.a viagra, you bloody hell owe me money for my breasts enhancement programme. KNN. you zham-ed the ball damn hard can. holycow. but the whole process fucking funny. thanks ah. -.- and despite the damn chilled weather, i got burnt. geez. and my arms are fucked. so are my feet.

okay left with viagra and met up with ahliang to go acer. bloody hell. that 197 sbs bus driver should just slap his own balls. we pressed the bell, he never stop at our bus stop, and then alighted us at the next stop which is at the expressway. KNNCBB. poor ahliang and i had to keblakang pu-sing. arghhhhhhh. after that, we headed to town. sat awhile then i left. CHOMP(sq)-ed. HOHOHO. song boh. eat until song song. and later on, coffee-ed + had weird conversational topics. lol. (:

righttttttttt. exams are nearing and i feel like im still having fun. nonono. i should start studying now. dammit. someone please give me the motivation to study.

okay im damn seh already. goodnight goodnight.

if we're ever gonna fall in love. it's gonna happen now.

2007-01-25T01:43:00.000+08:00

apcalypto. fucking grose. :x
"the balls are useless."
LOL.

im fucking sleepy now. but i've got no school later. which leaves me a reason why i dont have to be in bed anytime soon. but i've got to wake up quite early later and i hope it doesnt rain or else i'll slap someone's face.

I AM FUCKINGLY HUNGRY NOW TOO. can someone please deliver some food over to my place NOW? :s

okay crap. goodnight.

sometimes i wish it was you.

2007-01-23T20:53:00.000+08:00

tell me what makes a good and an ideal partner.
tell me what makes up love.
is it just understanding between two? tender affection for another? intense attraction to another? sharing? giving? honesty? selflessness? compassion? pleasure in bed? faithfulness? receiving more than enough assurance? or what?
tell me.

-

"how much is the black chocolate?"
"oh sorry we dont sell chocolates here. we sell handphones."
HAHAHAHAHA. sorry. inside joke.

k lets all fuck the law tutorials tonight.

2007-01-22T22:46:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i came home so early to take my afternoon nap. today was crap. damn bloody stoney the whole day.

funny how over the years, the contents of our conversations have changed so much. lol. dont ask me what how why who when. but i guess it's just the process of ageing. :x

goodbye, i'm not going to waste this time,

this light that burns will keep on fading.

goodnight, i'm not getting up off this ride,

i'm holding tight until i can feel alive.

2007-01-21T18:24:00.000+08:00

that 4 hours of sleep didnt quite help much. now im still super bloody duper in need of sleep.

to sum everything up, the past two nights was c. r. a. z. y. la. :x im sorry if i didnt play a good host to you. im sorry if you felt like you've wasted your time there. im sorry if you felt like you were so out of place there. but thank you for those who came. your presences were much appreciated. and for those who took such good care of me throughout, THANKS. :) love you people so much, you know who you are. :) :)

when my brain comes back alive again, then i'll blog more.

goodbye. (:

2007-01-19T03:15:00.000+08:00

hi!

erh wth man. didnt quite enjoyed much just now. it was kinda boring in fact. argh. that kinda explains how come i was already home an hour ago. -.- but it was still quite fulfiling for me because, i wont tell you why. HEH. :D and thank you little cm, and your friend too. (:

i hope my mum dont drag me to school later. i. dont. wanna. go. school. :x

and this weekend is gonna be damn fun. i promise myself i'll be a good girl from next monday onwards. work = earn money to satisfy my da hua. study = get through this sem without having to da-bao any modules. :)

awww man. okay im crashing my bed now. i prolly wont be blogging until sunday, UNLESS, they have wireless connection there. hohoho. TTFN.

2007-01-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

okay. fine. tanknncheeknntong is finally 18 too. :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU BOY.
okay ah. 18 already ah, behave hor. be a good boy. dont go clubs find love, because we know we can hardly find love there. make love maybe la. lol. sorry i was kidding.

play hard play smart be responsible. LOL.

2007-01-16T23:08:00.000+08:00

now it seems like you're doing exactly what you used to tell me you would do. i really appreciated that. thank you.

you are far

im never gonna be your star

ill pick up the pieces

to mend my heart

strange that i was wrong enough

to think youd love me too

you must have been kissing a fool

2007-01-15T22:40:00.000+08:00

i hope they wont encounter those floods during their one-day trip to malacca today. come home safely. :)

early this morning i got to know about this funny incident. here it goes. i dont know if im supposed to blog about this la. but heck it. i find it damn humourous, somehow. :x okay. a couple was married for 9 fucking years, got 2 kids already. the husband wanted sex but wife dont wanna give. husband claims that wife has another man outside and wife got so mad, she reported to the police. and because of this, they're gonna file for a divorce. which means, in the first place, they got married purely for sex, not love. and now that the wife doesnt wanna give her husband pleasure, they're gonna divorce. -.-

fucked up.

okay i've got a confession to make. I AM A PUI KIA. i ate alot today. non-stop since morning. this is no good mannnnn. i haven been exercising for 2 full weeks already la.

limshaoling is damn high recently. just because my name is shiyun janice. where is WONG? eh honestly ah, how the heck i know? lol.

and yeah. tanknntongccbtong, thanks for those cute little things you got for me. LOL. awww. tao yan. i've got so many at home you still wanna stock more up for me. heh. :x and dont think that just because you're turning 18 in 2days time means you can yaya hor. hohoho. excited boh? SONG BOH?

right. the matter of fact indeed, hit me kinda hard right in my ass. what am i to do? but its okay. i know i should be feeling this way. at least i know its right to feel this way. if im able to help others get through their shit, i know im able to help my own ass get through this too. what others wanna see me as now, i dont care. because i know deep inside im still myself. do you really know whats in me? i dont think so. :)

i've got a sore throat. something which i hate quite abit. argh.

how about you give me one word to describe JANICE.

but why should i try to resist

when baby, i know well

that i got you way under my skin

2007-01-15T00:43:00.000+08:00

OVER AND OVER, OVER AGAIN.

2007-01-14T16:22:00.000+08:00

so since im not your everything,
how bout i'll be nothing,
nothing at all to you baby
i wont shed a tear for you
i wont lose a wink of sleep
cause the truth of the matter is
replacing you is so easy..

2007-01-13T00:50:00.000+08:00

it's been raining since yesterday night. which means, it has already rained for 24hours, and it is still raining outside. this kinda weather friken good to sleep la. which explains how enjoyable it was sleeping in the bus while on the way to city hall, and also during the journey back home at night. whee! :)

oh yeah btw, thank you ^^^^^ for waking me up this morning. but apparently, you havent master the art of waking janice up yet. so therefore, after your call, i went back to sleep again, which leads to me waking up late to meet ahliang. :(

OH! yes la. the weekends are finally here. WHEEHEE!

-

nevermind. i actually typed a paragraph of something, but then i decided to take it away. :s

oh ya. im a bus idiot la okay. I ADMIT. so can anybody please be nice and teach me how to travel around singapore by bus? i dont even know what buses i can take from wherever i am to the destination i want to be. but now that im finally, yes FINALLY, using concession, i will try to take less from mrt already. which means, i gotta learn those bus routes. daddy suggested that i should get the mini guide book. imagine me travelling around with that book. i think i will really look like some idiot la. :(

OKAY. I CANT WAIT FOR TONIGHT LA FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! :D:D:D k bye!

2007-01-11T22:59:00.000+08:00

hi. :)

i didnt have school today. dont need jealous la, everybody. :D but like finally ah, i could take a break and sleep longer than any other nights ever since school started. i swear to your balls, this week has been hell for everyone of us la. projects due, one after another. but that's cause everyone gei kiang la. during the two weeks break no one started on any projects at all. so when school started and all those deadlines start nearing, then everyone chiong ah chiong ah. song liao la like that. but alright la, fun la. i think last minute work more effective for us, hor? lol. weekends faster come faster come! after this week more relax already. then i'll prolly start work, so that at least my da hua can have a minimum amount of money inside. knn. da hua these few months keep taking away my $2 per month. i very bu shuang already. :x

met up with onelinggggggggg for chickey rice. wheets. had a nice time catching up with this almost-going-crazy girl. aiyah, i think she'll know what i mean la. haha. :) then i spent my entire evening finishing the econs assignment. song boh. finally, im done and over with it.

mama papa went overseas. i hope they will take good care of each other man. please dont let poor janice worry for the two of you. rawr. and remember to come home with some new clothes for me. heh. lovelove.

oh yeah. brother came home for a little while just now to collect his helmet. LOL. then he put it on, and wah piang eh, i couldnt stop laughing la. i show you my sexy brother.

damn funny la. i cannot stand it. and have fun in the jungle bro! :s

certain things have come to a point which i feel like i dont want to care anymore. i dont want to forget about it all, but im really tired.

fuck i should have just said 'okay!' just now. DAMN. nevermind. because if i did, i'll be expecting myself getting into some deep shit. :x

okies. ttfn. :D

2007-01-11T02:33:00.000+08:00

hello!

oooo. i've changed my blog url and switched to the new google whatever blogger thingy. okay nevermind what it is. and i just felt like changing my blog url and so i did. heh. kinda bored of the old name la, so that's why.

uh huh uh huh. a few of us were talking about our times during secondary school. and we realised how much we all missed those times.

for me, i have so many memories to keep, those which once took place in wss. from staying back in school for fun till late evenings just to talk crap and do dumb things, to me becoming a prefect and was very much hated by many many many students, to us, girls, being spearated into two teams and played games of super violent bball until someone made me fall and i dislocated my bloody knee, to me becoming a vicehead prefect which changed my life a little, causing me to force myself to be a guai kia though i still used handphone in class, eat in class, yada yada, yet at the meantime, made plenty of new friends, to our lovely class constantly ordering mac delivery and once got caught by mr quek, who took all our food away and we concluded that he most prolly brought them back to his office and ate them all up, to remembering how mdm wan's seductive voice was when she kept asking me to study harder for my chinese, to those millions of hours spent in the art room, to all those wonderful gb and prefects camps i've been to, to all those sweet memories that happened when i was in love dont know how many times, and so on and so forth. there are just so many so many memories of those good old times, and if i were to list each and every one out, i think 4375397 days also cannot finish listing la. so yeah, these memories will just be all kept at the corners of my heart, not letting any leave me. heh. :)

sia la. i cant believe i actually typed so much out. lol. okay they must have been purely rubbish to you la. but nevermind. i like.

was at the balcony just now, watching wrestling. -.- lol. but i still think alley bar's a nicer place leh. they play nicer music. although balcony has got nice big sofas. lol.

2007-01-09T00:35:00.000+08:00

:)

hello! nah my brain cells all died a minute ago, so all that i want to blog about is to wish TAN CHEE TONG a safe trip to wherever he's going. and please hor, come home safely. or else no gummies for you. lol. plus you come back, a few days later we can go you-know-i-know-where already, so you better come home safely. LOL. :D

but most imptly, my present la hor. gum xia.

CHEERS!

2007-01-07T21:26:00.000+08:00

hello. im back home from a super short trip to malacca. lol. this time, maybe you can ask me bout it la. but then, if you ask me, i will only reply you with " I ATE ALOT AND NOW THAT IM HOME I NEED TO LOSE THOSE FATS NOW. " :D

i tell you, malacca has the bestest chendol. HOLYSHIT. their gula melaka like free. 100% brown sugar syrup. everyday eat confirm guarantee diabetes shiok shiok man. and this cute little hut serves the best chendol. wheets.

oh we went to this night market at jocker's walk or some shit like that la. alot of nice nice things. but wah lao, they gave us 1hr only. i think 5hrs also not enough. HAI. end up, didnt buy anything from there, except for Mdm Goh's pineapple tarts which my brother were craving for back in sg. oh btw, he's going for a long holiday to the army for reservice tmr. AWW MAN. jia you brother! :)

and here's daddy's favourite photograph with the horsey. EH WAH LAO. i first time touch horse. lol. sorry la i never go zoo before can. =x

oh and the first ever limousine used in malacca....

the view from our hotel..

AND LASTLY..

mummy and i. with erm, chocolate on my teeth. EHEHEHEHE. and..

the leng zai with the leng luay. :D :D

2007-01-06T01:12:00.000+08:00

i wont be home from 6am later till sunday. :)
im going on a mini holiday.
not excited about it though.
because if not for this trip later,
i'll be at some place now. argh.
okay nevermind. lol.

and the dinner just now was darn WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO! but mama toppled a coconut, it fell on her and then it came to my side. grrrrr.

visited this place that smells REALLY REALLY NICE. been a long time since we all went shopping together too. so fun. i always enjoy going shopping with mama cos she will be my special atm. MUAHAHA. ;)

i failed els. alamak. but quite expected anyway. haha. that hongkie uncle almost wanted to whack me. wah lao. your module so dry, then still must memorise so many boring shit. and i only failed by a few marks. suan le. AHHH.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. =x im sorry. i think i only understand what it means. call me crazy. but hor, i think i really am already. fuck.

2007-01-04T23:20:00.000+08:00

this just might hurt a little

love hurts sometimes when you do it right

dont be afraid of a little bit of pain

pleasure is just on the other side

let down your guard just a little

i keep you safe in these arms of mine

hold on to me pretty baby

you will see i can be all you need

if you stay, won't you stay, stay

save room for my love

save room for a moment to be with me

save room for my love save a little save a little for me

won't you save a little

save a little for me ohh

ohh come on

make time to live a little

don't let this moment slip by tonight

you never know what you are missing until you try

i keep you satisfied

if you stay, won't you stay

stay

woah. imagine waking up at 1040am, left for school immediately, reached at 1115am, chiong project till 110pm, presentation at 130pm. HOW'S THAT MAN? -.-

anyway, in the end, we still went last night. shiok. lol. mambo damn cute leh. how come nobody likes it? =x

yay. i cant wait for dinner tomorrow with everyone. it's been a loooooooong time since i sat down with both my parents, brother and his wife on a dining table. :):)

i think i should sleep already. my brain cells all died already.

2007-01-02T03:25:00.000+08:00

HI! today is sucha a nice day. :)
and it will be a nice nice day for everyone too, i swear.

OKAY. fuck. i feel like im still not in the right state of mind. holyshit. please save me. erm, okay. my dad didnt wanna wish me a happy birthday just now because he said that it's actually not my birthday YET, because 18 years ago, right now at this point in time, he was out somewhere playing mahjong, while my brother was out somewhere fucking a girl, and my mum in the hospital, waiting for my grand arrival. LOL. okay sorry, i was kidding about what my dad and bro were doing 18 years ago la. but yeah la. what my dad meant was, it's not my birthday YET because i was born on this day, but only several hours later from now. okay, if you get what i mean then good, if not, nevermind. =x

well, thank you people, you people know who you are la hor, for wishing me a happy bird-day through smses, phonecalls, i.m. and even in-person. really appreciated them alot. oh and it kinda reminds me about the convo between zhihua and i a few hours ago. she said it was my bird day soon, and geez, i told her i dont have a bird. so i said it should be pussy day instead. okay not funny. sorry. but yeah anyway, try the pink pussy..........cat drink from billy bombers, not bad leh. OKOK. but above all these ah, the most precious people i wanna thank the most ah, are my parents, for erm, producing such a wonderful child like me AND my brother, for being 12 years older than me. i love them so so so so so so much. aiyah, the love among my family and i is undescribable. :)

eh fuck. somebody please save me. i dont wanna die today leh. show some mercy. =s

and WAH LAO. my room smells damn nice la, im serious. ehehehe. sensual. HOHOHO.

okay. so im 18. i need to behave like an 18 year old. i need a bloody room for an 18 year old to sleep in NOT A KID ROOM FOR AN 8 YEAR OLD KNN. =x

so, like i said before, i dont quite stick to new year resolutions one. and i prefer making birthday wishes because mine came true for my previous birthday. so yeah, im gonna make my birthday wish for this year at the exact time of my birth later. WHEETS.

okay. i think by the time whoever who reaches this sentence ah, he/ she gonna fall asleep already. i think im too sexcited bout today and whatever that may come in the days/months/years/LIFE ahead of me.

CHEERS!

2007-01-01T08:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2007! :)

and i swear to God, LAST NIGHT/THIS MORNING WAS DAMN WILD. cb. -.- FUCK. funny how we still managed to walk out of the house and go market for tim sum breakfast at 7am.

HELLO 2007.

and it's my birthday tomorrow.

okay. i need to sleep. fuck.

2006-12-31T01:53:00.000+08:00

WHEEHEEE. :)
so fun so fun. its the last day of 2006. which means, its the eve of a new year. and also, the eve of the eve of my birthday. :) hello people, you've got like only 2 days to get a present for me. lol. and how come little cm's more excited than i do? though im excited enough. 'jan's birthday on jan! yay!' LOL.

the next time i blog will most prolly be in 2007. so here's a few things i wanna say before 2006 ends. lol. i hope its not gonna sound like some dumb speech. =x okay first and foremost, I WANNA START THE NEW YEAR BEING HAPPY. because i didnt quite start 2006 being too happy and i shant go into details why, but yeah, prolly cos of that thats why the whole of 2006 didnt turn out quite well, for me. ah fuck i dont know what im trying to say la. anyway, yeah though a number of happy things happened this year, many fond memories to be remembered and all, BUT I WANT 2007 TO BE A HAPPIER YEAR FOR ME. :) next, i realised i dont quite have the habit of sticking to my new year's resolutions, so i shall not make any for next year. BUT i do want to fulfil certain things though. and i hope i'll be able to. :) and then, yeah actually nothing already. lol. fuck i think im drunk. heh. no la, just a little sleepy that's all.

i actually spent 2 days tidying my room to welcome the new year. its damn neat and damn clean now can? and i hope it will stay this way for a longer time this time round. because everytime few weeks after i clean my room, all my tees and pants and bras and panties inside my wardrobe rage war again, the teddies on my bed fight with me for space to sleep on again, and all the dust on the ground starts to invite more friends again, such as miss strand(s) of hair, mrs ant(s), mdm trash(es) and handsome dust(s). argh. THEREFORE, ive decided to put mr piggy inside my wardrobe to watch my clothes and make sure they behave, i created a room for all the naughty kids like Jerome and Humpy(LOL-.-) to live in and never letting them come out, and lastly, instill a sense of discipline in myself to clean my room once every month? definitely not once a week man. =x

i felt like ive just talked trash, again.

i've got a mission to complete before my bloody deadline. but i dont know when will be the right time to complete this mission. dont ask me what's it. because i'll never tell you. but nevermind, just wish me luck will do. :)

HELLO to 2007!
HELLO to a 18-year-old Janice!
*WAVES MADLY. :D

2006-12-30T01:01:00.000+08:00

LOVE a four letter word you can utter illogically, sometimes carelessly.
ROMANCE the flavours of love.
KISS the moment when you realise science, logic and words are superfluous.
LONGING a chemical reaction of the heart called desire.
MAKING LOVE when the chemical reaction becomes a combustion that rages like a forest fire through the whole body, sometimes.
HEARTBREAKS the moment when the chemicals no longer bring a reaction.
MARRIAGE the perfect union of two chemicals.
AFFAIRS just disguised as love with a non fairytale ending.
LOVE SONG a vital aphrodisiac for any romantic night.

got this from a mag. oh well. and,
OOOOOOOOO. the steam bath just now was REALLY STEAMY. lollollol. :):)
and those convos we had really enlightened me again. LOL. more of such pleasee.

COME FLY WITH ME.

2006-12-29T03:41:00.000+08:00

i've been listening to a song for the

287340375430th time now,

yet i never get bored of it.

and you''ll never know why.

my deadline is nearing. please bless me. :)

2006-12-28T01:50:00.000+08:00

drifting on a memory

ain't no place i'd rather be than with you

loving you

day will make a way for night

all we need is candlelight

and a song, soft and long

glad to be

here alone with a lover unlike no other

sad to see, a new horizon slowly coming into view

i want to be living for the love of you

all that i'm giving is for the love of you

lovely as a ray of sun

touch me when the morning comes

feels good to me

my love and me, yeah

smoother then a gentle breeze

flowing from my mind with ease

soft as can be

well, when you're loving me, ooh baby

love to be

riding the waves of love enchanted with your touch

it seems to me

we can sail together in and out of mystery

paradise, i have within, can't feel insecure again

you're the key

and this i see

now and then i lose my way

using words to try and say what i feel

yeah, your love is real

i might as well, sign my name on a card just to say it better

see, time will tell

cause it seems that i've done just about all that i can do

HELLO!

potluck-ed at sim's place.

there were two miss tans, one mr tay and his girl, mr sim, mr bong, mr chen, mr lee, mr harris, mr ho, mr jee, mr ahmad, mr goh, and MISS WONG. :)

so fun so fun so fun.

MORE OF SUCH GATHERINGS PLEASE. then i can get to eat alot alot plus, crap with those familiar people again. :D

but i dont wanna get lost on my way to anyone's place ever again. :( ALL THANKS TO SOMEBODY LA. !!!

no more work for me, for the time being. I'VE GOT 4 BLOODY PROJECTS TO RUSH. adding the fact that WE HAVE NOT STARTED ON ANY OF THOSE YET. well done! and i hope the people at Ethan's dont screw up tomorrow. i see politics arising. i see hatred beginning. i see things i dont like to see at the work place. wth. everyone has changed. oh well. OH BTW, ytd was exactly my one year anniversary with deliwheels man. =s

you care.

2006-12-27T01:00:00.000+08:00

even till today, i still hear your name.

and it makes me weak all the time.

2006-12-26T00:09:00.000+08:00

YAY. i spent my christmas working. HO! HO! HO!
but it wasnt that bad anyway.
plus, i got log cake. HE! HE! HE!
xie xie ni suyanto xian sheng. :)

AND EH WTF! ONE MORE WEEK LEFT ONLY LEHHH. YOU PEOPLE ONLY HAVE ONE MORE BLARDIE WEEK TO GET MY PRESENT. DO IT DO IT! HA! HA! HA! HE! HE! HE! :D

2006-12-25T03:18:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL. :)

had fun exchanging pressies. i've got the cutest thing from jk, but i dont think i'll ever want them to grow on me like that. im quite fine with mine actually. LOL. and thng's like the luckiest person who received that EDUCATIONAL THING from me. :D

lovelove!

2006-12-24T03:27:00.000+08:00

hey there i said it
i'm in love
with you

there's an ocean between us
just like me
deep and blue

and i, at times have had nothing
but tonight i want nothing but you
you're the only thing i want
the only thing i want
the only thing on my mind
all the time

staying up till dawn wont take its toll
till we get old
and drinking is just the way
we keep away the cold
and you, you know what it means
to be true and searching like me

you're the only thing i need
the only thing i need
the only thing on my mind
all the time

and you gave me a reason
to give you my soul
i'll give you it all

you're the only one i want
the only one i need
the only one on my mind
all the time
all the time
all the time
all the time

2006-12-23T01:48:00.000+08:00

my dear rosie,

unbeknownst to you i took this chance before, many, many years ago. you never received that letter and im glad because my feelings since then have changed dramatically. they have intensified with every passing day.

i'll get straight to the point because if i dont say what i have to say now, i fear it will never be said. and i need to say it.

today i love you more than ever; tomorrow i will love you even more. i need you more than ever; i want you more than ever. im a man of fifty years of age coming to you, feeling like a teenager in love, asking you to give me a chance and love me back.

rosie dunne, i love you with all my heart. i have always loved you, even when i was seven years old and lied about falling asleep on santa watch, when i was ten years old and didnt invite you to my birthday party, when i was eighteen and had to move away, even on my wedding days, on your wedding day, on christenings, birthdays and when we fought. i loved you through it all. make me the happiest man on this earth by being with me.

please reply to me.
all my love,
alex.

this book damn nice. :)

2006-12-22T00:57:00.000+08:00

HONEY IM HOME. :)

hi. you ask me how's my trip.
i'll reply you and say it's boorrrrinnngggg. because i spent 4 whole days doing the same shit.
EAT SLEEP EAT SLEEP EAT SLEEP EAT SLEEP, only a littttttle bit of shopping and late night movies plus popcorn.
fucking sad life. lol.
but it was freaking cold there la. that's the only shiok part.
it rained every day. and some parts of malaysia were flooding. OOOO. i thought i was gonna swim home.
oh. and i brought home with me a bulging tummy. AWWW. how nice. :(

OKAY. so the moral of the story is,
don't bother asking me how's my trip. lol.

2006-12-17T18:58:00.000+08:00

i'll be home soon. :)

i'll miss you.
i always do.

2006-12-17T00:57:00.000+08:00

why is it only when tragic/ unhappy/ saddening/ life-threatening/ painful/ terrible things have to happen to someone that people start to learn to cherish life and the things and people around them more? we've just lost a friend. someone not exactly close to me. but we've met once in this life. and it's really sad. this young man has yet to see so many things ahead of him. he used to be such a cheerful person, at least from what i know. this is life. and death is part of it. lets just hope that the passing on of this dear friend of ours shall be a reminder to us that we should learn to love and cherish more. we'll never know whats gonna happen tomorrow man. :(

as for me. this year hasnt really been a good year for me, as a whole. except for the middle part. just the middle part. and also, not forgetting, the part when i started my poly life and the friends i made in there. so many things happened this year. more :( ones than :) i should say. but yeah, like what suannie said to me just a minute ago, its a learning year for me. truly, i've learnt so much so much just within this year. and i guess, im still learning. i need a break from all these things that have been happening. and yupp, the short trip later shall be a good peaceful getaway for me to reflect on myself and so many things. i'll be back soon.

and there are so many so many things i wanna say. but till then..

2006-12-16T03:02:00.000+08:00

"may your nose have free passage way for air to go in and out."
THANK YOU SWEETHEART. we'll meet up soon kkkkkkkk. :)

daddy say,
people come and go.
this is life.
it's all fated.

2006-12-15T01:51:00.000+08:00

okay. i managed to fix my screwed up modem and now im back online after 2939308239582 hours later. cb. waste my time fixing that shit. oh well. YES AH! common tests are overrrrrrrrrrrr. :D:D:D fuck man. today's paper was totally screwed. one by one left the classroom way before the time given for the paper. hoho. nevermind. prepared to die anyway. so we went to catch a movie and had billy bombers after that. awww. cathay's billy bombers is the nicest. WE ALL KNOW WHY. lol. :) and im down with a terrible plus horrible bad flu. my nose feels like its gonna drop off anytime from now. i can smell no shit and taste no shit. argh. bloody irritating. we went to catch The Holiday. nice show leh. :) everyone who enjoys romance stories should watch it. heh. and i wanna marry that kinda man next time. at least if i die before he does, he knows how to set his priorities right, he knows how to be a mum and dad to my kids, he's willing to read cook books and parenting books before he goes to bed every night, he knows how to make hot chocolate with marshmellows for my kids, he knows how to humour my kids by being mr handkerchief man, and sit in the tent with them to look at the stars. alahh. if reality was like all the nice movies i've seen before. how nice. okay i should stop dreaming. anyway, i felt so loved after the movie. lol. i remember someone once asked me how it feels like to be loved. yeah it feels good. and i missed that feeling quite abit. and dammit man. i've never felt so broke ever in my life before. I NEED MONEY I NEED MONEY I NEED MONEY. argh. :( alrighty, to sum the whole day up, its 1) NO MORE COMMON TESTS. 2) THE HOLIDAY. 3) BILLY BOMB BOMB. 4) ANG MOH LONG. 5) AH ZHUAN'S NO LINK-NESS. 6) MY NOSE NEEDS TO BE FUCKED. and 7) PICTURES FOR THE DAY...

did I ever mean a thing to you at all
oh I need you now more than before

2006-12-14T00:11:00.000+08:00

fuck. fucking high tonight. must be the mermaid freeze and the milo dinosaur and the cafe latte and the cheesecake and all the interesting conversations we had. AHHHHHHHHHHHH. LOL. hi my name is Peter. im gonna ask you ladies a very sensitive question now. are you ready? fuck. not funny lor. k sorry. self-entertainment. =x FUCK ELS TOMORROW LA. i think im prepared to go in, sit down 10min, submit blank shit paper. argh. shoot me please. and my nose is damn irritating. knneh. okay i really really really cant wait for tomorrow to come. i cant wait for the weekends to come. i cant wait for christmas to be over. i cant wait for my birthday to come. HOLY. and yes, oneling. i dont need a doctor. hahaha. you keep saying you wanna take me to a doctor last time when i needed to. now i dont need you still wanna take me to a doctor. hougang polyclinic la. :D fuck la. im talking trash. okay bye.

2006-12-13T14:04:00.000+08:00

can somebody please remind me i still have 4 chapters of els to go.

2006-12-12T23:28:00.000+08:00

to really love a woman, to understand her
you gotta know her deep inside
hear every thought, see every dream
and give her wings when she wants to fly
then when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms
you know you really love a woman

when you love a woman,
tell her that she's really wanted
when you love a woman, tell her that she's the one
cause she needs somebody to tell her
that it's gonna last forever
so tell me have you ever really
really really ever loved a woman?

to really love a woman
let her hold you,
till you know how she needs to be touched
you've gotta breathe her, really taste her
till you can feel her in your blood
and when you see your unborn children in her eyes
you know you really love a woman

when you love a woman,
tell her that she's really wanted
when you love a woman, tell her that she's the one
she needs somebody to tell her
that you'll always be together
so tell me have you ever really,
really really ever loved a woman?

you got to give her some faith, hold her tight
a little tenderness, gotta treat her right
she will be there for you, taking good care of you
you really gotta love your woman

then when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms
you know you really love a woman

when you love a woman, tell her
that she's really wanted
when you love a woman tell her that she's the one
she needs somebody to tell her
that it's gonna last forever
so tell me have you ever really,
really really ever loved a woman?

just tell me have you ever really,
really, really, ever loved a woman?
just tell me have you ever really,
really, really, ever loved a woman?

2006-12-11T22:40:00.000+08:00

i cut off my hair
put some red in every nail on my feet
i think its pretty.
repainted all the rooms
got a cat that i named june obviously
i think she's happy.
friends threw some parties
and to them all there's not one that i miss
and i..
try to spend my time with some body new
but everyone still reminds me of you
i try to play some songs that change my point of view
but every song still reminds me of you
i dance on walking
listen to the people talk on the street
i dont feel lonely
i saw some movies
but your face kept coming back on the screen
i think im crazy
can't make decisions
i could use some more distractions today
and i..
try to spend my time with somebody new
but everyone still reminds me of you
i try to play some songs that change my point of view
but every song still reminds me of you
i wonder where did i go wrong
that made you go
oh how i hate to feel alone
somebody new
still reminds me of you
somebody new
still reminds me of you

2006-12-10T23:47:00.001+08:00

ohmyfuddiegod.
i need my beauty sleep badly man.
zoukout zoukout zoukout.
LOL. fuck man.
i still cant believe myself.
okay so the first booth i visited was DELIWHEELS. hohoho. delicia's reaction about me wearing a skirt was kinda weird. HMM. i wear skirt very shocking meh? wah lao. =x
then, we went to this booth. something like tarot reading but its not. but also use cards one la. anyway, ya. its more of about any current situations we wanna talk about and decision-making. HOLYCOW. i was kinda amazed by that man la. KNNEH. quite scary. but then again, i dont think its good to believe the whole chunk of it either. and one of the cards said i should follow my gut instincts. but everyday, my instincts differ. then wtf?
okay. so yeah. we PARRRRTEHHHHH-ed.
shant go into details. -.-
the most amusing thing was where and how suannie taught me to keep my money. HAHAHAHA. =x
THEN.
at 11am today, i started work. it was hell. not cause of my new S. yeah okay she was quite irritating la. but mainly cause i was darn tired darn sleepy darn seh darn stoney throughout the whole day. next to me was carrefour's toys fair. its really cute to see those little kids' faces. like when they enter the place with so much excitement in them, and end up leaving the fair with no bags of toys in their hands, you could see their sad sad faces. aww man. reminds me so much about myself being a kid last time. how cb i was towards my parents when they didnt wanna buy the toys that i wanted so much. =x oh and there was this little boy. he came to me to borrow my phone to call his mumy cause he lost her. so cute. lol.
oh ya.
thankies jinny, for your auntie anne's.
thankies ongie and viggy for accompanying me home. if not for you guys, i think now i'll still be at jurong east mrt. hmm.
okay. so now. im just gonna sleep forever. goodnight.
and SONG BOH.
all the best to everyone having common tests this coming week. wheets.

EH FUCK. 22 MORE DAYS ONLY LEH.

2006-12-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

RAWR.

IM TIRED.
DAMN TIRED.

take my hand, cause im walking out of here.

yeah yeah yeah okay okay.

firstly, thanks ahzhuan. i owe you one. :)

secondly, momo! im gonna steal your nintendo ds lite from you. and you suck. you killed my mamatchi. *&^%$#

lastly, thanks jee! for the dunkin' dounuts.
and i love the rest of you too. :)

2006-12-08T00:43:00.000+08:00

does the breaking of a broken heart ever mean a thing to you?

2006-12-06T21:36:00.000+08:00

27 more days. heh.

jasmine foo wished me a super advanced 'happy birthday', since the next time we're gonna see her would be on the 3rd of jan. lol.

PAPER TOO EXPENSIVE, COME!
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. =x

okay. while my feel for studying isnt really here yet, i'll just blog abit first.

ive got a new found friend. and his name is Hu Lau Lau. he has met practically everyone here, yet im especially close to him. HOHOHO. go figure. :)

and we can cross the deng qiao together. funny meh. knneh. my chinese laoya let you all laugh only. fine la. its TIAN QIAO. not deng qiao okay. =x

right. i finally realised such cockroach still exists in this world. cockroach = it = farktart. i've met quite a few of such to be honest. but this bloody cockroach is one mother f-ing retarded cockroach who doesnt quite know how retarded it is. it sucks people's blood, literally, and especially MY blood. knn. *&^%$#$% cockroaches have brains, but i guess this one is an exception. brainless, senseless, heartless, emotionless, etc etc the list could go on and on to describe how tweettweet it is. it tries really hard to act damn smart. but on the other hand, it doesnt know how retarded it was. and when it finally realised that, it tries sooooo hard to cover its own backside, not knowing that it makes itself even more retarded. okay i think im talking nothing and no one understands. but miss sua and miss ong should know who this cockroach is la. im sorry miss sua. i just cant take it anymore man. ARGH.

miss sua, i cant believe i actually typed out a msg that was seven msges long this morning. LOL.

enough said. im tired. and i cant wait for the weekends to come. but my next common test will be in 6 days time. and i feel like i have not enough time to conquer three bloody modules. and i think im just gonna die.

OH YA. dont play play hor. PLW common test had 100% passes leh. LLJ can go kiss her ass. look down on 03 somemore la. see who's got the power now. HA.

AND IF DREAMS WERE WINGS YOU KNOW I WOULD HAVE FLOWN TO YOU

2006-12-05T00:22:00.000+08:00

this is not what i've always wanted.
this is not what i've always wanted.
this is not what i've always wanted.
this is not what i've always wanted.

okay. goodnight.
and erm, 28 more days.

2006-12-03T04:59:00.001+08:00

suddenly, i thought of you, again.

2006-12-03T02:07:00.000+08:00

30 more days. :)

ok. no sleeping for tonight.

2006-12-02T10:55:00.000+08:00

good morning beautiful. how was your night.
mine was wonderful, with you by my side.

okay so my saturday started off well. i had hum jing pang for breakfast, and i met my favourite auntie neighbour when we left home. :) and now, im here inside AMBER. and i can forsee a nice saturday ahead of me today.

anyway. i was too tired to further blog bout what happened yesterday. so thats the reason why im here now, again.

yesterday, i went to the place where we used to go last time. come to think about it. it has been bout more than half a year since we last gone there. hoho. i went to the 11th storey. those were the good nice times. from digging 20cents/50cents coins for the lockers, to smuggling books under our jackets, to trying to get through the security desk, to smuggling tidbits in for me, to looking at that hotel a distance away. haa. :) OH YA. i cant remember how much money we wasted on the lockers, but bloody hell. NOW ITS FREE MAN. =s anyway. i went to the Retreat too. remember that time when you first took me to the Retreat, it was raining. so we could only look into the mini park through the glass door. oh well. still, that whole place leaves me with the fondest memories. :)

then we headed to town, and the funniest thing ever, happened there. to both sua and i. HOLY. read the farkies for more info. =x

2006-12-02T01:10:00.000+08:00

omg. fuck fuck fuck.
this is damn exciting.
EXACTLY ONE MORE MONTH. hohoho.

but sadly, that gulu gulu muthu's lover is gonna burn me alive.
si gin nah. :(

people, COUNT DOWN TIME. care to join? :)

2006-11-30T23:35:00.000+08:00

im tired.

2006-11-29T22:27:00.000+08:00

FUCK ME PLEASE.
fucking pissed. =(
I MISINTERPRETED THAT MOTHER FUCKING QUESTION WRONGLY.
10 marks gone just like that.
just fuck me. just fuck me.
ARGHHHHHHH.
damn angry. =(

2006-11-28T18:26:00.000+08:00

try to forgive me,
find a way to believe me.
i'm hurting the same way too.
oh I know it's not easy,
but baby believe me.
we've been fighting this war far too long.
where did we go wrong?

2006-11-28T00:10:00.000+08:00

you dont know how much that made my entire day.
it's been many days/weeks since i last smiled like this.
you know it best.
but i wish there will be more than just this.
still, i'll keep that faith in me.

2006-11-27T10:34:00.000+08:00

Your most likeable trait: STEADINESS

Capricorns are ambitious, and the lives of those born under this sign are marked by a purposeful pursuit of their destiny. Your motivating force is desire for success, money, status, position, authority, and (though you may not realize it) for love.

In the sign of Capricorn the practicality of earth combines with the initiative of cardinality to create a personality geared toward leadership and power. Your ruler Saturn is the planet of limitations, which includes the limitation of time. (To the ancients, Saturn was the symbol for Father Time.) You have a heightened sense of the value of time, which helps to make you a superb organizer and planner. In the sign of Capricorn the quality of patience reaches new heights. One of the hallmarks of your sign is that you learn to wait for things you want.

An aura of melancholy and sternness often surrounds you. Saturn has been called the Celestial Taskmaster for it symbolizes responsibility, discipline, and restriction. You, as a child of Saturn, are practical and above all determined. As long as there is a top to get to from the bottom, you will persevere in your upward striving.

You think of yourself as a real person in a real world which allows little time for idle pleasure-seeking. You have a sense of purpose and a great faith in your own ability. Essentially, you feel you can depend only on yourself. This remoteness of spirit is often misunderstood by others; it has been described as cold passion. But you are not cold as much as self-sufficient. Beneath your reserve there is a sensitive and sympathetic person, and anyone who needs a strong shoulder to lean on needn't look further than Capricorn.

Certainly you do not deserve your reputation for being sober and gloomy. One of your more striking characteristics is a sense of humor. Your wit may be dry, incisive, but it is extremely funny and has a way of erupting when others least expect it.

As is your nature with everything else in life, you are cautious and conservative with money. Chances are you will amass wealth during your lifetime (usually in the later years), for you know how to make sound investments. In business your success is due to painstaking preparation. The journey of ten thousand miles may begin with a single step, but you know you can't get anywhere unless you first know where you're going. You may not size up a situation as quickly as some, but that can be an advantage, for it means you won't heedlessly plunge in. Instead, you will research, examine what others have done before, and gather all relevant data. Only then with a thorough understanding of the details, will you begin to move. And then you won't be stopped until you reach your goal.

Your basic concern is for security. That goal comes first and you are usually materialistic. You can be spiteful toward those who stand in the way. You have a great sense of pride and will not forgive anyone who belittles or slights you. By the same token you will repay favors done for you. Scorpios also go out of their way to repay a kindness, but in their case it is done out of a sense of gratitude and fidelity. With you the motivation is pride, which does not allow you to live comfortable under an obligation.

More than any other sign of the zodiac, Capricorns marry for money and prestige. In most relationships you must dominate, because when you are in control you do not feel vulnerable to another person's power. Ins mall ways you are continually testing the loyalty of those close to you. You are the loner of the zodiac, but have a great need to be loved and appreciated. Unfortunately, you won't let this need be known—in fact, you are a past master at concealing it.
Underneath the mask, you wear still other masks, and it can take a long time to discover the real you. To others you may appear aloof, indifferent, hard to reach because you are so self-contained. But the very elusiveness of your Capricorn personality can be hypnotically attractive.

Anyone who cares enough to penetrate your shell of reserve will be greatly rewarded. Your affections and loyalty run deep, and you cherish and protect those you love. And you stick around when the going is toughest.

2006-11-26T19:31:00.000+08:00

because i am weak,
will you lift me up?
because i am scared,
will you keep me from my fears?
because i have lost all my directions,
will you keep me in your shadows?
because i still need you,
will you still hold me close?

2006-11-26T18:26:00.000+08:00

but i love you.

i still do.

2006-11-26T00:59:00.000+08:00

i love how you smile in the morning
and the way you looked into my eyes
i remember the way that you kissed me
these memories will keep me alive

won't you give me just one good reason
why should i let you go
i feel you no longer need me
i can feel it in my soul

do i still, live inside you
cos i feel, i'm never alone
do you mean the things you say or do
~~i don't wanna be fallin' for you~~

all that i have within me
the things that i couldn't show
i can't face the truth you tell me
just let me be on my own

can you see i'm missin' you now
i don't really care what i'll do
i wanna control my emotions somehow
~~still believe i'm losing you~~

2006-11-25T02:28:00.000+08:00

no one in this fucking world has called me what you just did.
not even my mum. not even my dad.
and you just did.
thank you.
get a life,
and fuck off.

2006-11-25T01:17:00.000+08:00

cough cough cough. fuck it. i think im dying. =s

even my hongkie lecturer asked me why is janice so lifeless. and, i have no idea why either.
it doesnt really matter, does it.

it feels really good after letting everything out.
but whats the point?
i can never find the answers to my questions anyway.
those things i thought about, are they ever gonna be real?
the feelings i get, do you feel the same way too?

call me stupid. call me dumb. call me a fool.

i dont know. by asking myself more questions,
its gonna make myself feel more fucked up. but i just.. :(

thank you momo. you've been a great help just by listening.

i will follow my heart that shows me
i’ll risk the things that i may lose
i may not have all the answers
at least the choice is mine to choose

wont you walk away from this hell,
with me?

2006-11-23T23:40:00.000+08:00

i cant take another day without you.
cause, baby, i could never make it on my own.
ive been waiting so long just to hold you.
and to be back in your arms where i belong.
im sorry i cant always find the right words to say.
but everything i ever known gets swept away,
inside of your love.

2006-11-22T20:58:00.000+08:00

--

do i deserve someone at all?

2006-11-20T09:58:00.000+08:00

--

notadayhaspassedwithoutmehavingthoughtsofyou
andus.notadaywithouttearsflowingdownmycheeks
everytimeithinkofyou.imissyou.imissyoursillysmile.
ireallydo.thesmilethatmademefeltlikeyoumeantthe
wholeworldtome.iwantyoutobeahappyman.iwantyou
tolivelifetothemax,andtoseekwhatyoureallywant.well,
ithoughtiwouldbestrongerthistime.iwaswrong.nothing
seemsthatnicetomeanymore.everythingelseseems
unimportanttomenow.ihavenoideawhereimheadingatall.
iwannagetoutofthissoon.butidontknowhowlongilltake.
maybeishouldrunaway.runfarfarawaytoaplacewhere
idonothavetopretendanymore.tellme.
tellmeistillhaveaplaceinyourheart.:'(

// no. not everything, baby. i havent. i guess i never will.

2006-11-19T15:24:00.000+08:00

i know i shouldnt be this way
but a part of me wouldnt stay
i found it hard to keep away
cause these memories wouldnt fade

when will i know
how much i did
cause i know
im hurting you
i never meant to make you cry
its the last thing i wanna do

im missing you
i feel that im wandering alone
here on my own again

wanting you
with every step that i take
i'll make my way to you

you never thought i'll say to you
all the things you've always want me to
i neevr seem to get things right
but i'll make it up to you

some things are better left unsaid
and sometimes i cant explain at all
i dont know how to make amends
or was i ever wrong before

no matter where you are
i'll have a part of you

2006-11-19T03:05:00.000+08:00

i miss you.
:(

~~slap me, somebody.~~
~~just fucking slap me hard.~~

2006-11-18T23:19:00.000+08:00

today wasnt that bad afterall.
met E-MOmo.
kns. 30 questions also cannot think for me. -.-
oh. thanks for the drink too.
after that,
while waiting for another ass, =x
i noticed someone standing next to me for quite awhile. i didnt quite bother at first actually.
but when i turned to look, it turned out to be DA CHEF/MY POA SAVIOUR! long time no see man.
after kopi, we bumped into my son. damn. take care of your wrist la. see you soon too son. =)
but the bus ride home... :(
anyway, thats why i said, today didnt turn out that bad la.

HAI. i was just mentioning bout that bbbbb in one of my previous entries.
oh well, good for you lor bbbbb.

whateverr la okay.

// that hope still lingers.
i'll keep that faith in me.
till the day you say
i dont mean a thing to you at all anymore.
:''(

2006-11-18T00:18:00.000+08:00

i was at this place just now.
anyway, i did enjoy the company.
guess it was cause of the corner of my throat that hurt so much, i didnt feel like talking.
or maybe i was just,
somewhere else.
nevermind bout that.
we ate like crap btw.
anyway,
as i lied down on the big big bench, looking towards the dark skies,
it just reminded me about that particular night.
that night when you were so far away from me.
we were on the phone.
and we were looking at the same stars that were hung brightly in the sky.
though we were so far away from each other,
but as i looked onto the sky,
i could see you.
how much i wished you were there with me.

and how much i wish you're here with me.

2006-11-17T01:26:00.001+08:00

i actually wrote this when i was alone at a place yesterday.
it's just for memory sake i should say.
not anywhere near wanting to gain sympathy from anyone.
go away if its not worth your time.
goodbye in advance.

we started talking in sec3 when we became classmates. you were a small boy and i was plump then. -.- since then, we became friends. slowly, we became really good friends during those sec4 days. i missed those times in the science lab. we would sit next to each other at the first row on the right side of the room. everytime you pon school when there were practical lessons, i would be alone, therefore, i wouldnt be able to copy answers from you. and practical lessons would seem so boring because i had to do those practicals all by myself. oh. and remember you ran the 2.4km run with me? you ran next to me, constantly telling me never to give up. and my final timing was cool. i was happy. :) when i fell out of love, you were always there for me. you cared so much for me. you lifted me up again. remember those days when we had to secretly meet up? till now, i still dont understand why we had to be so secretive . but i didnt care, we always enjoyed each other's company anyway. anytime and anywhere. :) i used to dislike one your friend because she told you that i didnt appreciate you and the things you've done for me. to think that there was once when you actually believed her. i was upset. because i felt really appreciative towards you then. thank goodness that friend of yours didnt affect our close friendship in any way. or else i would have killed her. ha. no im kidding. and i used to be crazy over mr buble. our friend booked the tickets for us when i didnt quite promised him i wanted them, but you still went to his concert with me anyway, well, after a hard time finding those cash to pay for our tickets that is. i remember we almost got lost on our way there after so much of walking, and ended up taking a cab. nonetheless, we enjoyed that evening so much. those days spent in any cafes/libraries were simply unforgettable. the number of packets of m&ms you smuggled in for me, the things we talked about, and the silly little things you did etc. when we bumped into any of our friends along the way, they never fail to joke about the two of us. argh. =x nearing my birthday last year, we got into a misunderstanding because of one bloody phonecall your friend made to me. i was pissed. and because of that, we didnt talk for days. i swear to god, my birthday wish last year was things to get better between the two of us. and my wish came true. i was happy. things got back to normal again. those things you said in your forum, i actually knew about it but it was supposed to be kept a secret so i supposed you didnt know i knew then. when i read it, i was touched and it kinda brought me to tears. i couldnt believe that was my first time tearing for a friend so close to me.

soon, school life started again. but that didnt stop us from meeting up often, some silly friend of ours used to enjoy finding ways and means to bring us together. and he's a good friend of ours still. anyway, all these while, i knew you had a thing for me. and i supposed the same goes for me. but i hid my feelings. later, i asked myself, why not let's give it a try, but i couldnt feel the assurance from you yet. when i worked in town, you always took the time to visit me. once, it was raining so heavily, you still came, but you got yourself really dripping wet. :( oh. and when both my friends were about to get into a relationship of their own, you told me we would race with them to see who would be the first couple to be attached. they won though. but soon, it was our turn. i was happy. and so were you. i began to love you more than anything else day by day. the first kiss i gave you, the first kiss you gave me, the first time we held hands etc, do you still remember when and where they took place? i do.

our 1st month, you said it was wild, something so out of this world. remember how we used to say the same things at the same time, do the same things at the same time, ordered the same food unknowingly at thai express, and funny how you knew where i wanted to go for a particular kind of icecream. telepathy, i should say. thinking back, it was really funny. ha.

into our 2nd month, remember the night you called back to tell me that the guy in The Bachelor told the girl he chose that he would make her the happiest girl on earth? you said he was lying. because im the happiest girl on earth, not her. i was. and i still am. that night, i grinned from ear to ear as i fell asleep. and when i had cravings for mcdonalds' nuggets, you got them for me on your way to my place. rememeber that night we combined forces and played isketch against others? we beat them flat several rounds continuously. we were the champions.

our 3th month, you went for camp twice. those days without you felt so empty. but the phonecalls you made when you were away always make my day. we said that all we need is patience and trust to keep us going. i was really upset when you said everything else seemed not so enjoyable anymore. i wrote you a letter one night, but i didnt have the courage to give it to you in the end. the letter's still with me btw. remember what i also taught you to do everytime you miss me? i hope you still are doing that everytime you think of me, well, thats if you still do. and when you came back from your first expedition, i made a suprise for you. i hope you still remember how it tasted like. it must be horrible i guessed? heh. =x i told myself one day that i should learn to be less clingy onto you, or else we would both lose our freedom. i guessed i never learnt. and now that i do, its already too late. :( slap me.

our 4th month, we didnt get to spend our anni together because you were away for another camp. but it didnt matter. soon, i started to feel less and less attention from you. i was afraid. afraid that you dont love me anymore. and we got into a really terrible augument. i got even more afraid after that. after which, i started to change, as what you said. but all i wanted was to learn to compromise to make things better. i knew you would be happier without me. but i kept telling myself never to let you go because i thought things would soon get back onto the right track again. then it was your birthday. you told me you were happy. and i hoped you really enjoyed that night with all those 'friends' of yours next to us. :)

then it was our 5th month, sad to say, it was our last anni too. :( when you looked into my eyes and said you missed me, i felt so loved so loved. i thought things really got back on track again. but no, i was wrong. so i supposed, this was the best way out.

you once told me that you'll always stand by your promises. one of those you made to me was that you will always stand by my side even if we're not together anymore, though you wished that will never happen. and now that it has happened, will you still stand by your promise, baby?

and if you dont know, i miss you.
i miss you so badly.

2006-11-15T23:37:00.000+08:00

love has a way

so many words were left unspoken
so many dreams go unfulfilled
never to come out of the open
the cry in the dark where no one knows

i wanted so much for a happy ending
the fact still remains
love never ends
lettin’ go is not the end of the world
your love remains in my heart

love has a time
love has a place
love has a reason
you can’t ask it to stay
no matter how long
the time, the distance
baby love has a way
to help me survive

now there’s no use for my pretendings
out in the open
i would run
i know for sure what i’m leaving behind
i’ve gotta move on with my life

lookin’ back
i remember the times
things we said
the tears we cried
there’s one thing
i will never forget
for one moment in time
you were mine

2006-11-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

--

the rose has not withered a single bit.
and i hope it never will.

2006-11-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

memories are meant to be memories. being a part of the past.

i thank you for all the sweetest memories you've given me. ive thought so much about it. and you've finally got me to understand that i was living in self-denial for the past few weeks, or maybe months. and the things mummy said last night, and today, really got me back to my senses again. i would be lying if i say im really really okay about what has happened, but im not entirely upset about it either. i supposed this is really the best way out for us. you would be happier. and so will i. i saw you today, but i guessed you didnt see me. i was on the bus and you were entering school. i felt so alone when i was on the bus. everything that happened last time just flashed back into my mind again. i couldnt control the tears that were falling. this time, i didnt have any shoulders to lean on. and every familiar places that i went today, i swear i saw images of you and i and those happy times we spent together. the place where it all started, now feels so empty without you. topless 5s and venezia's lemon sorbets will never taste as sweet if i dont eat them together with you anymore. i know i am wrong for adding more stress into your life. and im sorry i wasnt able to share your problems with you. i was selfish. because when i finally got you, i only wanted you and your everything to be for me alone. im sorry for not giving you enough space for yourself. i really didnt mean it. we're both still young. and this isnt really the right age for us to commit into anything yet. there are many other things in this world that we havent seen. mummy, i finally understood your point. thank you mummy. thank you for holding my hand and patting me to bed last night. thank you daddy, for the little pats on my backside too. i really missed them. heh.

time shall heal all wounds. and as time goes by, i know one day we'll be like how we used to be again. keep the faith in you yeah sweetheart.

there are so many other things i wanna say. but some things shall only remain in my heart. some things cannot share one. =x i know such entries may not sound like me, but i promise i'll soon return to my normal happy self again. janice is a strong girl, remember? :)

oh. and dont you ever dare take that coat off lil dylan. he needs it to keep himself warm. and tell him i miss him too. :)

you've been my bestest friend.
and will always be.
still, with that extraordinary love. :)

2006-11-12T15:18:00.000+08:00

why does it always have to feel like im at fault everytime we have little disagreements? i dont know if you have ever put yourself into my shoes and feel how im feeling. im really tired. tired of shedding tears everytime i feel like this. everytime i feel so alone. if you were me, baby, would you rather be kept in the dark or know the truth? maybe your intentions were good, i know. but have you ever thought about me, about how i feel to know the truth myself? isnt being together all about honesty and giving in to one another? i love you. i missed you and you know how i much i wanted to see you even if its for a short while. and i will never understand how you feel if you dont tell me, baby. you're always lined up with so many activities, i know. on the other hand, im more carefree and everytime im alone, no one knows how much i wanted to be just lying in your arms and nothing else. but im learning to give you more space for them and for yourself. but i want to know if im still someone important to you, and if you're really putting in the effort to find time for me. people say, absence makes the heart grow fonder. im already missing you like crazy. but others say absence makes someone lose feelings for another. im afraid. im afraid that you would feel this way. i may be too possessive. i may be too over sensitive about certain things. but you know above all these, its because i love you. i really missed those times sitting on the dining table with you over dinner, lying next to you watching tv and other little things i used to do with you. i miss you baby. i really do.

or maybe, i just havent been a good girlfriend afterall. im sorry. :(

goodbye to the world.

2006-11-11T13:41:00.000+08:00

is this how i should be feeling?
sometimes, i ask myself.

everytime it rains,
and im stuck at home,
i feel so alone.
where is my baby?
imissyoucrazy.
:(

2006-11-11T02:07:00.000+08:00

time check : 2:00am

WOAH. had supper with onemillionoflings just now. :)
can i make a friend with you?
HOHOHO. are you happy. lol. =x

honestly, i dont know if i should work there leh.
firstly, the pay also not much of a diff.
secondly, i must go take two jabs before i can start work.
lastly, must wear some kuku nugget uniform if i work there.
BUT CAN MEET AHMENGS.
-.-

i miss my baby terribly. :(
jia you for your compy later k. though i may not be there to support you, but you know deep inside im always with you. go go jia you!
ilu ilu. <3

2006-11-10T01:13:00.000+08:00

one boy, one girl

two hearts beating wildly.

2006-11-09T01:10:00.000+08:00

i hereby declare that im super anti our damn IWD teacher. SCREW HIM SCREW HIM SCREW HIM. he should just go back to india and suck his own shit there. =x knn. so many people in class, only wanna pick on me. NEVERMIND. i dont wanna say already. thank god we see his fuck face 2hours per week only. hurhur.

oh dammit. i still need to do my research for comtoolkit for today's lesson. @#$%^&

hmm met up with xp for coffee yesterday. so nice. long time no see lady. meet up more often okok. :)
and something really screwed happened to me on our way back. lol. and eh! woman, not funny lor. =x

''I SAW U COS IM BESIDE U.." -.-
how dumb can this person get. wah lao eh.
oh well. =s

you want me i want you you hold me you love me
now now let me out i want to take you in my arms and i want to feel
now you dance with me come to in my arms

2006-11-06T09:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FIVE BABY. :)

1, 2, 3, 4, high 5!

i love you sweetie. you're my hero. you make me proud of you. you're my man. :D

2006-11-05T02:47:00.000+08:00

lets just say. ive been missing these two girls so much. that it feels nice just to see them again. but today's meet up was super unprepared. LOL. we didnt know where we were actually heading to la. but oh well. it didnt turn out that bad anyway. we walked so much. took so many dumb photos together. talked bout so many things. did stupid things. ate alot. ate alot. ate alot. ate alot. NOWWREEN must love her name so much now. heh. and yeah, we hope you like your belated birthday pressie from us. you dont want can give me. HAHAHAHA. im just kidding. :) eh. wtf. i realised i still have sand inside my nails. eeeeeeeeee. -.-

mmm. okay. im not looking forward to the new week to start. got so many things to do. hai. somebody please save me. can can.

OH. who wanna start counting down with me? HOHOHO. :)))

i miss my baby. i miss my baby. :)

2006-11-04T00:59:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO.
im starting to lose the feel to blog anymore. =x
oh well. maybe i'll just come here only when i feel like it.
arghhhhhh.
anyway, i hope ahliang enjoyed herself just now with all the eggs cracked on her head and the cake smashed into her face. =D
HAHAHAHA.

and mummy, you and daddy should stop scaring janice like this.
please dont make janice worry for the two of you all the time okay.
stay well. :)

and baby, i love you. heh. :)

2006-11-03T00:22:00.000+08:00

cause you gave me the best mixtape i have. says:
HAPPY BDAY AH LIANGGGGGG..!!!!
life's like a rollercoaster..sometimes it goes up, sometimes it goes down..but mine's alil special. it goes all de way down says:
happy birthday
nic™ says:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
ѕнаоling ; and its my name thats on that jag , says:
yeah baby!
Mayo is on "L" 's Side Choa ` KIM JUNG HOON says:
SHENG RI KUAI LE
marilyn says:
HAPPY BDAY!
ѕнаоling ; and its my name thats on that jag , says:
i am 17
nic™ says:
HAHA
nic™ says:
FINALLY AR
ѕнаоling ; and its my name thats on that jag , says:
YEAH BABY
cause you gave me the best mixtape i have. says:
HAHAHAHA YAY!

HAPPY SEVENTEEN AHLIANG!!! :):)